The Blessing or The Blessor?

I love the blessings of God!  As I stated in my last post, we have begun to see the windows of heaven opened over our lives and blessings pouring down.  Hallelujah!  Yet, this has been many years in the making.  It has been time after time after time of doing the right thing even when the right thing was not being done for or to us.  It's been years of sowing without much reaping taking place.  It's been more years than I'd like to count in the land of lack, and many more years in the land of just enough.  It's been a lot of time believing that as long as we continued to do right we would reap the blessings.

With all of this, however, was something I believe far greater going on.  (Even though I didn't realize it for most of these years.)  My heart was being changed.  I loved the Lord!  I love the Lord!  I've been seeking Him and His righteousness for more than 20 years.  My motives were not wrong though sometimes misguided.  I"ve always wanted the Lord to receive glory for what HE's done in and through my life.  There came a point, however, that my walk with Him became decidedly deeper.

Though the fig tree does not blossom and there is no fruit on the vines, [though] the product of the olive fails and the fields yield no food, though the flock is cut off from the fold and there are no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will exult in the [victorious] God of my salvation! The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds' feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]!

Habakkuk 3:17-19 AMP

For me, it's what I call "laying my Isaac down."  I surrendered myself to the place that no matter what happened - whether or not I ever saw financial prosperity; whether or not I ever walked in ministry as I believed I had been called - I love Him!  He became the one true goal of my heart and my life.  I stopped pursuing the blessings - physically, mentally, and financially.  I stopped pursuing ministry.  I pursued only Him!  I pursued Him for Him not for His hand.  I worshiped and praised and praised and worshiped just because He is.  It was no longer what He had done or what He was going to do.  It was just Who He is!

And in this place, I remain.  I am so thankful for the blessings and the current ministry opportunity.  I definitely won't ask Him to take them back.  Haha!  Regardless of these, I love Him!  I can honestly say, as did Peter, "Lord, to whom shall I go? You have the words of eternal life."  He is my Passion!  The One thing I seek!  The Object of my pursuit!  The Focus of my heart!  The Longing of my life!  And nothing less than all of Him will do!

Scriptures for reference and study: Malachi 3:10; Galatians 6:9; 1 Peter 2:15; 1 Peter 3:17; 2 Thessalonians 3:13; Hebrews 12:3; Galatians 6:7; Ecclesiastes 3:1-8; Matthew 6:33; Jeremiah 29:11-13; Psalm 27:4; John 6:68; Song of Solomon 5:8-16; Song of Solomon 8:6-7